leftovers flow through my veins
little drops of her blood
mixed with mine
as the sunshine casts shadows
little secrets locked away from me
and I’ll never have the key
I’ll never unlock her insanity

I delightfully inject
her infection smoothly delivered
it creates the perfect shiver
and I can control just a little more
I add a few scars
to the growing collection
to her leftovers

if I was bulletproof
if I could last just a little longer
I might become a little stronger
finish with her leftovers
build a new life without her
crawl inside myself and find
a new reason to survive this

it’s all too much to think about
and sometimes I blanket my mind
cover up the helpless
throw away the alone
eat a little more leftovers
until I’m full for change
ready to rearrange my unsettled life

and slowly I rid my appetite
slowly the cravings fade
for her insanity
for her leftovers -

slowly I start over.

leftovers :: © forever :: dosePoet.

did you ever
find your reflection to be me
find yourself starring back at reality
find your thoughts in the strange light of
the day we made lifelong promises

hallucinations of us
I hear your voice around
I feel an intense presence of you inside
and you’re nowhere near
no you’ll never be here again

and I close my eyes
I close my heart
I clear my mind just to find
one lonely wish left deep inside
did you ever

and did you ever
wake up in a dream this mystified
hold onto my love just to survive
another day in the world
did you ever

and maybe we can do it all again
if we just lay here long enough alone
we’ll slowly become one
we’ll slowly mend the broken
under each others’ skin

baby did you ever
fight the darkness deep in you
put away the lies and live pure truth
just for a day where I wait
for you forever baby did you ever

and I close my eyes
I close my heart
I clear my mind just to find
one lonely wish left deep inside
did you ever.

did you ever?

did you ever :: © forever :: dosePoet.