everyday is a battle
in my mind where I find
you perfectly naked white
smooth delicious temptation
and every bit of my frustration
crowds me
bleeds me out of
bleeds me into
another fantasy with you

you’re bent over
you look back at me
you simply scream
you just cant believe
what’s happening to you
I’m not even sure
how I do what I do
how I please you
so perfectly

everyday is a battle
there’s a hole in my heart
we’re so far apart
there’s no feeling
there’s no home
just the taste of your dreams
and it seems
I don’t want to sleep again
I’m scared to close my eyes

we shared the best times
we shared the bad times
we battled
we settled for less
we wanted so much more
my tears are my words in a puddle
on your bedroom floor
and I bleed into
what I can never have

everyday is a battle
it’s my last smile
you push away
I pull you near
but baby maybe it’s just destiny
that everything blew up
so I could break down
so I could run away again
start over and over and over

you’re on your knees
you look up at me
you simply smile
and I fucking scream
in ecstasy
baby what’s happening to me
I’m not even sure
how you do what you do
god how I love you
so perfectly -

and everyday is a battle

we’re full fucking throttle

I cant keep up with you

I cant win the battle

I’m headed back to the bottle

I cant win the battle

I cant win the battle

everyday is a battle

with you.

battle :: © forever :: dosePoet.

my thought process excites
craves your perfect body
the reflection of you in my eyes
when you’re on your knees
in front of me you’re my sexy little freak
no words needed
explosion
necessary.

my thought process
revolves around your control
it rationalizes my greed
because I cant live without
you telling me
exactly what to do to you
please tell me what to fucking do
to you.

my thought process
starts at your sexy painted toes
ends at your silky soft red hair
it indulges in everything in between
I can never think of anything else
the taste of your kiss on my lips
your long legs wrapped around me
your sexy all over me

my thought process
is filled with your sweet flesh
and every dirty little fantasy
your silhouette when you’re on top of me
grinding hard down on me
starring endlessly into my eyes
shaking in ecstasy
your sexy all over me -

no words needed

explosion

necessary.

thought process :: © forever :: dosePoet.

I’m ready
always ready to cry
almost ready to die
almost ready to fly
right the fuck out of here
because I’m so tired
and I really don’t care
about much anymore
this life cant heal my broken heart
without you next to me
and I’d rather bleed
slowly right to my death

and just when I think I’m so close
I find myself so far away from you
I’m so fucking ready
to fly right the fuck out of here
it’s what I do
I run away
find a new way
wake up to a new day
get really fucking drunk and baby
I’ll just do it all over again
if I somehow make it through
without you

I’m so fucking ready
to fuck you
to taste you
I’m ready
I’m so fucking ready
are you… no.
why is my star fading
why is everything so jaded
so out of control
why does my soul feel
a fucking million years old
without you

maybe I can sew my mouth shut
then I’d never say I love you
and I wouldn’t hate myself so much
when you don’t say it back
I’ve done everything possible
to give myself a heart attack
if I don’t die soon
well who knows what the fuck I’ll do
next without you
my words just disappear
and my body just burns somewhere
out in your atmosphere

and this is all a riddle
it’s just distorted glass
we’re looking through
and I’m so ready
always ready to cry
almost ready to die
almost ready to fly
right the fuck out of here
inside my messy head
contaminated by pure love
by addiction
to every lie you tell me

I’m so fucking ready
to fuck you
to taste you
I’m ready
I’m so fucking ready

maybe I can sew my mouth shut
then I’d never say I love you
and I wouldn’t hate myself so much
when you don’t say it back
I’m so fucking ready -

I’m ready baby

I’m ready.

I’m ready :: © forever :: dosePoet.